being broke is starting to suck.

In any other profession like lawyers, dentists, sanitation workers, or teachers, if you do fairly well, slightly above average, you can make a living. But only in art and heavyweight boxing, you have to be top five percent to pay your rent.
- Nam June Paik

immediate history and lurking fascist theocracies

revs "no future"

"This corner says that the Chelsea gallery scene will be gone within a year with the exception of half a dozen megaspaces, feeder galleriess for Fashionland and ClubLand. It is weird right now to see vast swathes of Chelsea territory which resemble the bad parts of Staten Island dotted by visually claustrophobic Frank Gehry buildings and their spawn. . . . As for art galleries, a free experience, a civilizing calm, the formerly stable tiller of the Chelsea boat, they are fast becoming a memory, and a vague one at that." [text via artnet]

I want a refund. The fairytales lied.

layers upon layers. fast, fleeting, transient. messy but not. borrows and builds. light.

that‘s so much more than i am today.

the witches love me, the hunters hunt me, and my life was the shortest way around

1:: looking at my bare hands

So how does change happen? Major change often comes stealthily. Its revolutionary effect may often reside in the very fact that we do not recognize what it is doing to our behavior, and so cannot resist it. Often we lack to words to articulate resistance as the invention is a new noun whose verbal effect lags in its wake. .

laughing at god.

he said I love you in the middle of the night, I said, In the middle of the night everybody loves everybody else these days.